Selfish.

How can i be so incredibly selfish and ridiculous? Look at me ... i have everything i could ever need, more than i could ever want, and i still manage to constantly burden those around me with my complaining. i have food, shelter, amazing people who love me and i love in return, the forgiveness of God, and the opportunity to become whatever i dream to become.

And yet, i manage to complain about the food and shelter i am provided, the amazing people when they irritate me for the smallest of reasons, and even the opportunities that are placed in front of me, i find reasons why they are undesirable. i don't give enough to the people i love, i realize this--and i despise that in myself. i don't know how i can ever give them as much love as they've all given me. i'm in debt to them all.

It's not as though i've never noticed the problem before ... i just can't seem to change it. i can't seem to get out of this horrid loop of complaining and feeling like i'm constantly taking things for granted. Appreciation--that is what i lack. No one seems to give enough emphasis to appreciation. So the question is, how do i change?

Mindset--Mindset is the key.

i can only hope to share enough with others so that they can know that they matter. i want them to know that they make a difference in my life--that in the end, they've all changed my life...