i have to keep reminding myself
this is worth it
all of it.

i have to keep reminding myself
because i'm not sure i believe it--
not anymore

i have to keep reminding myself
that i can't ask you for help, because it would mean asking you to stay
when you want nothing more than to turn around and run from here.

i have to keep reminding myself
while the earth is still spinning beneath my toes
it's done.

--
Life.

yet a week left, and i already miss you.
i'll be missing you for the rest of my life.