23 October 2005

my fault.

the cursor is blinking in a blank document--i have a five page paper due in three days. five pages shouldn't be a problem. and wouldn't be, if i could think without that sick peristence churning somewhere between my stomach and my throat. i can't even breathe. and the sun refuse to shine. i'm breaking the Code as i type this, since i have every intention of clicking the publish button when i'm finished.

so many words, all at once. maybe i should take it one piece at a time. i need to know things, i need to believe in something. i should stop wanting things that i have no right to ask for..

i'm cold again


where am i?

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

See, steer, listen, sing, write, break. I guess I can read the paper on my way to work!

But really, they wouldn't be guidelines if we didn't break them once in a while. Hang the code!

I'm writing a novel in a month. Thats 1,667 words a day..you can destroy that paper. Keep the faith!

Anonymous said...

stress and fear can create a seemingly overwhelming and paralyzing shock to your mind. some of the ways i deal with them are:

accept the stress and accept the fear, use those urges to help fuel productivity.

and/or

a highly secretive training technique taught to me in my youth - stop, drop & roll. that's right. just stop what you're doing and roll around on the ground. at the very least you might find a penny.

keep your chin up. it makes it easier for the next big problem to come along and uppercut you.

twice translated said...

five pages done. turned in. thanks guys--i mustered all of my brain power from the remaining 6 parts of my mind to get it done...

o: you're excused, but asking for such things is unnecessary. i rather enjoy your posts :)

i: hanging the code is a dangerous thing, and should only be done in moderation. and i'm not so sure about this nanowrimo business. way too many forced words.

a: stop, drop and roll...such a humbling experience, recommended for stress relief. thanks alex. it's nice to have you back

twice translated said...

unfortunately the coursework is the least of my worries at the moment :-S but we'll see about that update anyway..