struggle.
You imagine yourself
standing.
                 alone.

i thought i might
stand
           beside
and offer my hand
my shoulder
even a piece of
Heart.

what use is something
You don't understand

yet i offer
                  everything
that i am,
all that i have
just to see
You smile

...

tell me something--how did i get off imagining i could sit next to You as an equal?? Someone should have stopped me a long time ago. Can't believe i haven't thought of it before... i think i've found a problem: i've been trying to equal something in this world--equal anything, and it's impossible. i will never ... once again: never measure up to You.

i'm cetainly no better than anyone else. That's not new material..same old song and dance. Perhaps what i would 'equal' isn't measured by the same scale--and no one knows how to convert one unit to the next. (no one but God of course ... he ordered the limited edition of the Master Book of Conversion Factors from amazon.com, way back in the day, before amazon existed. He can do that, you see ... after all, he's God.)

perhaps i've been
displaced 
                 in a world
i'm not meant to comprehend


just hold on to your dreams.