And so i will

Breathe in right away,
Nothing seems to fill this place

i've been pushed ... i'm taking the fall. But i'll get back up. Perhaps without help--but i'll get back up.

It's too complicated to actually sit and plan out. To even have expectations is an insult both to the fickleness of Fate, and to your intelligence, for not being able realize that. Yet we all do have expectations - of ourselves, and worse, of others.

People change..

You hear that all the time, but what...what does it mean? It means that as you live your life, and people live theirs, slowly but surely tiny imperfections will appear. Paths will diverge ever so slightly. They will converge, too, but once two lines finally meet they have nowhere to grow but apart. It's foolish to think people remain the same since the day you mert them to the day you die. The most you can hope for, particularly in the here and now, is that you will grow together, changing in the same ways, for a while at least. Hope lives in the fact that we never stop growing...

~Anarchy

He was right again--and i couldn't have written it nearly as well. But am i growing? Living is constantly growing ... and right now, i feel void. blank. out of touch. disconnected. i fear i've unintentionally paused 'living' ... Home is where the heart is ... and if the latter is misplaced? What then ... where is one supposed to go from here ... where IS 'here'? And if one doesn't know where said 'Home' is anymore, how can one find peace and comfort--and freedom? What am i supposed to do?

'Just keep going' She said ... indeed. Just keep going.

That's the best any of us can do, i suppose. And so i will. i will keep going--searching for Home--reaching for peace--praying for comfort--wishing for freedom.

And so i will...